“I sought my soul, but my soul I could not see. I sought my God, but my God eluded me. I sought my brother and I found all three.Have & shall always love all of you…!”
They say time heals the saddest happenings and the worst calamities one is forced to face but i refuse to agree this time,some tragedies just seem so fresh every time you look back.
We were born of the same parents,grew together under the same roof and in the very same loving arms.Never in my vaguest dreams did i think he would disappear from my vision forever.I despairingly search for him in person but lo he ain’t around and this truth my heart fails to reason.
God keep him safe in your haven if this be your wish, i too will join him one day then fight it out with him…
He always fretted this unfortunate circumstance,and promised his dear ones he wouldn’t allow death to come his way…frail as he stood,fighting each day on sheer guts and wits. However none could help…the best doctors ,the most expensive medication and facilities,my silent prayers all failed hopelessly……………..a strong soul in a feeble shell.
He who i lost was too precious,my little brother who often exasperated me with his tricks and crazy tantrums…i beg God love him lots and hope you’ve put him in a healthy shell this time.
His memories live with me,often i feel his presence so vivid.Was couple of years younger but ever since i remember he protected me like an elder brother.There was a strong sense of helplessness when he knew he wouldn’t make it to the end of the road…telling me i’ll never see my daughter as a bride so i want to let her dress well now.Our mother was fashionable and very stylish in her times so that was perhaps the reflection he wanted to see in his daughter.
Few understood his state of mind, all were busy in our own ordeals of life leaving a soul not fully attended and when rescue was rushed the hours ran few. Repentance persists at leisure now,so let me promise to make all i know feel loved and immensely loved.
Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.
~ David Grayson
It’s a beautiful expression of feelings and the void we have in us. I couldn’t have said it or written it any better. How, when or why it started; yes, we failed his needs of the time and each thought of him reminds me of the shortcoming.
Only wish, could have done some more, been there for him more, said something more for him to feel we care and love him more than anything in this World.
All I can wish is he gets the peace and happiness he deserves.